So in the span of my last post, SO much has happened. Truly, all emotions and workloads were heightened in the span of a week. In terms of my personal/professional life I was feeling an adrenaline of encouragement and discouragement. I had moments where I was ready to handle and control everything all at once, and then moments where I was ready to give it all up and not put much effort. Without sharing too many details, where I’m at now is I’m proud and satisfied with the work, pride, and integrity of all i’ve poured into this aspect of my life this past week. All the work and communication I sent was honest, clear, and genuine. So when all is said and done, I can sleep at night knowing I was abiding by my own standards and the standards my organization holds me to, you know?

Friendship wise, this past week has been no different ugh! I was discouraged and disheartened by some of my friendships this past week. But the same goes for this, too! I know I am always loyal, genuine, and LOYAL with those I care for. To see that people I considered would do the same are in fact NOT doing the same was sad. But! I’m glad those are friendships I’m more aware of, and understanding of. There are always gonna be those people in your life that you gotta love from afar, you know? A part of me prefers that, because I find myself forgiving and forgetting, and loving from afar is better for them and myself. Because I still do care for those people just in a different capacity and expression.

Relationships can be SO difficult, but I will say, I LOVE how teaching, fleeting, empowering, and dare I say damaging they can be? Because in each of those there is a lesson. I think there’s a lesson to be learnt when my friend constantly downplays her hard work, as a precaution when the outcomes aren’t always what she expects. I’ve learned to remind her to be encouraged, to take herself seriously, and have pride in her choices and work. I think there’s a lesson to be learnt when some of my friends can become overwhelmed in a moment of emotion which can sometimes cause them to say or do things they’ll later regret. It teaches them what they themselves value in a friendship – someone to speak truth and reality into you or someone who is passive in your choices just to avoid any real conversation or confrontation? I think the latter suggests that they don’t care for your true character or growth, and are fine in simply being an observer in your life rather than an active and engaged friend who truly shows up and speaks up for you.

Of course, I don’t really know what I’m talking about but yeah a lot of feelings and things to do this week. I’ve come home for the weekend too because my sister is due ANY DAY now! I’m SO excited and nervous for her, but mostly scared LOL. I also have some homework to catch up on so it’ll be a busy weekend. TTYL bye guys 😀