So it is, or at least it was, the first day of the month of Febuaree. It is currently now 1:56am on the 2nd of Febuaree.

I had a really eventful day. It was a Sunday and I did the following

• Woke up at 12pm (i’ve been having trouble sleeping)
• Convinced Armani to spend the day with me and Melody
• Went to Nide Jardin to see our friend and grab matcha
• Chatted with our friend and made Armani say hi and shake her hand (it was funny)
• Went to Grandma’s to chat and catch up
• Grandma mentioned she made Tuna the other day and had leftover ingredients
• Grandma and I made a tuna salad together and it was SO GOOD
• Went home to pack
• Did I mention it was a Sunday I go back to school on Sundaes
• Said bye to my baby siblings and mommy and John
• Melody and I go to Target
• We bought blind boxes and snacks
• Melody drops me off at school :'(

So like I said it was a super fun day. And yah IDK y but I’ve been having a hard time sleeping at home, Melody and I must be in sync because she also doesn’t sleep until around latest 5am.

Also, Melody is frlfrl past due like by the end of the week I’m an AUNTY. #AuntyEra #QueenAunty #Memories #BoyAunty #Sisters

*trigger warning* sentimental :’) lol

I was looking through old photos I have of Melody and ugh I think some people are just always meant to be mothers. I feel like without knowing it’s something you can kinda grow into. Melody is going to be a special little person’s entire world, all that they know, and what they will find themselves always going back to. But I will say it’s nice to remember that before him, she was that (and more) to me ^_^. I was kinda like the parenting training for her, so you’re welcome little guy! LOL

Last few days of gigi being just gigi, and selfishly I’ll miss that version of her. My mom and I always tell Melody that she won’t only be a mother, she’ll always be a person first. A real person yknow? I know when children come into the picture you can kind of sink into that world of motherhood. That’s how you know you’re doing an exceptional job, how much you care. Once baby gets here I know it’ll be hard to remember a time before him, but I’m sure me being around will help remind her of that.

Having your sister become a mother is also very eye opening, in that it makes me remember that moms are people first. I used to think there was no one who knew more in the world, was more knowledgeable, kinder, or smarter than my mommy. I still kinda do, but that can also be damaging when they make a mistake, or have those people moments yknow? Are mothers sacred? yes. Perfect? no. But I think that’s kind of the magic in it all.

It’s also kind of cool because I’ve only ever known gigi as my sister, and to see her become someone’s mom is really neat. She has A LOT of learning to do, JK LOL. But I know it’ll be a beautiful new journey for her, our family, and baby boy. I’m so excited for her, baby boy will turn her world technicolor!!

Mine too, I will learn how to spell Febuaree for his birth date!

I wrote this blog entry very late, as you know, and my sentimental hours start at 11:00pm on the dot so this is peak emotional dump writing. GOODNIGHT XD

Also sorry to my grammatically correct girlies this blog will not always be so formal in writing lolz yk who you are!